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Made it thru the night - posted by Grillboy at 06/04 01:17AM At a meetin earlier. Wanted to drink. Been sober for 6 days. Was gonna go home and drink and try to make it work! But was talked into fellowshippin with some aa's. Did that, shot the shit while talkin some real shit.Went to coffee call with sponsor after and instead of being drunk right now, I'm buzzed off of sugar from brownies! If I wouldve drank nothing right now would be better. I'd a just woke up remorsefull. I need a miracle. But every once in awhile you people give me some hope.

re: Made it thru the night - posted by jda on 06/04 09:38AM Glad to hear you made it through another day. For a while, it was around day 3-5 that I would just go drink. Nothing else seemed to matter much when the obsession hit me. Hell, I would even hang out as you described and then go drink. Full of resentment at those who seemed to have a solution! At one point I had convinced myself I was somehow different and AA wouldn’t work for me. I was different alright….way more consumed with self pity and despair. I would leave AA meetings that were perfect, every one said the right things, people who were real alcoholics convinced me they were like me and yet they weren’t drinking. But back to the self pity and despair, these two things blocked me along with my inability to trust the HP and let every go. I had truly lost my legs. Unless locked up, I was doomed to repeat this over and over again. There came a point where I became willing to do whatever it took to just not drink that day. There is something about becoming totally willing to loose it all which spelled the necessary ingredient for me staying sober. In other words placing the horse (sobriety) before the cart (everything else in my life) was the key to this new found freedom from an obsession so strong nothing seemed to be able to break it. Then and only then did the obsession break and has not returned. I have been granted a new life and legs to walk on. It is my hope that you too get this relief. It is nothing short of a miracle that my obsession to drink is gone and there are many in the program that have experienced similar freedom. It is not a lottery. I am no more deserving or special than anyone else of a useful life free from alcohol. The big book says that all you need is a desire to stop drinking and some willingness to follow some suggestions. AA and the Higher Power will provide the relief needed if you seek it above everything else. Then you will know what a real miracle is and you too can share it with still others.

re: Made it thru the night - posted by Luke on 06/04 01:38PM Congratulations. I've been there before also and like jda, i usually got drunk again after about a week of trying AA. I finally realized that nothing else worked for me...religion, change of friends, different job, jail sentences etc...and AA truly was the last house on the block. So I continued to hang out with the AA "lowlifes" (so i thought) and started actually listening instead of judging-not because I suddenly became virtuous but because I had been beaten down by alcohol. Hope was all i had, literally, but today those hopes have become realized. Hang in there.

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